Pregnancy Fatigue, 29 weeks now!

Fatigue......... yes, I am feeling it and worst of all? I can't seem to sleep well at night. despite being so damn tired. This has also caused me to be less patient to the people around me.

Oh well, those who do not understand will just blabber unpleasant comments...that to me, I could not be bothered anymore. Some who understands, I am really thankful for. Some, go ahead and be unhappy and pull long face for all I care. Too tired.........

I think I am overwhelmed.    

Come on Jamie Lim, Mind over body!! I still force myself to do some housework because CNY is just 3 days away?? I can't just slack and do nothing like others.. I am way more useful than that. SO yes..... tired....... BUT! I CAN DO IT.

More packing up tomorrow! Bring brownie for grooming... Hopefully baby room will be ready by tmr evening. Just in time for CNY. Cause after CNY.... i am 30-31 weeks? I am afraid... I will get even more tired....... and I do not want to tire my husband to do packing all by himself cause he is already tired from work everyday!

When room is done up (by sunday evening)..... I shall look forward to our 5th year anniversary celebration on Monday. =)

Coming on 27th weeks!

Pregnancy craving can be a killer especially if you crave for unhealthy food! Be it sweet or salty, its going to affect your overall weight!

Recently I have severe craving for ICY COLD dessert... chin chow... sea coconut.. It went over-board when I had cravings at 12am? My husband got to hunt down dessert with me all the way till 130am! Finally got some icy cold dessert at swee choon (a place that sells dim sum). The moment I had the first mouth, it was heavenly! My husband is the best liao. Love him much! My cravings for desserts are tooooo strong and severe. Hehe. 

When I know my boss is going taiwan? I had cravings for pineapple cake (Feng Li Su). Too crazy. I must control! hahaha. 

I can have dessert instead of proper dinner! Super unhealthy and non-nutritious. Hahaha.

I HAVE TO watch what I eat before I gain tooo much weight! I cant wait to be full term, give birth, confinement... EXERCISE AND WORK! And..... BE LESS CLUMSY? I had a fall few days back and it hit my tummy and chest, The two areas that will touch the floor first. IT HURTS BADLY! LOL. I never see myself being so clumsy before!

Can't wait to live more like a normal person. Rather than stay home nua all day with my kid, its so lifeless? 

shower

feed

sleep

feed

repeat. 

That being said, my perception MAY change after my baby is out. I hope I will not be too obsessed with my child. If not, there goes my social life. I, too, pray that I will NOT turn into a weird fuck after birth. LOL. 

Before the arrival of our baby...

I am coming to 26 weeks... There are so many things to buy.. whether it is a want or a need. It has fallen into my list to do/get before baby arrives! You may or may not agree with me, If you don't, feel free to leave.. but whatever, I'm just sharing my views!

No 1.

1. Helper *yikes!* Very important for working parents. Many of my friends and colleagues asked me, "What are your plans after maternity leave?" Initially, I kept on saying, " Stop working lor." It definitely is the most undesired decision but at the moment, I could not think of any solution. Way before I got pregnant, I USED TO have a thought, "If I decided to have a kid, raise the kid up myself. Don't throw to my mother, maid or in laws. TOOT." They have spent half of their life taking care of us. Finally, their grandchild is out, its time for them to enjoy playing with them and not looking after them like a maid. Actually, right now as I type this sentence out, I still feel that once we decided to have a kid, we should not throw to others to take care of them, especially first few months! That is why... there is still a dilemma, whether I should go back to work even when my helper arrives. SIGH. 

I love my job, I love my company and I love my patients EVEN MORE; at the same time, I have to fulfill responsibility as a mother. Yes, maybe my helper will help me with the housework and I would just be a full time mother. I really do not know what the plans are going to be like. But a helper is a MUST. DO NOT TIRE people around you especially if you have high expectations of cleanliness, just like me. 

Being a very anal person, I would want to bathe, feed, look after my own kid especially during the first 4 months.. BUT WHAT HAPPENS AFTER?! When I go back to work and my kid is left all alone with my helper?! I still cannot accept it till date. Even if my kid is left alone with my mother and helper or in laws and helper...... just isn't right. It is like... what is the point of having a kid when it is taken care by others? I guess I just would have to trust my CCTV and Helper. Well, time will tell whether I am all ready to go to work and leave everything to my helper. OR just do part time. OR stop working. OR infant care =/ I REALLY HAVE NO PLANS NOW! 

Going for a short trip and leaving your kid to your helper or parents is a different thing altogether ok! IMHO.

That is why here comes No. 2 of what I have to do...

2. Install spy camera.... Even though my decision is not set, I have got to have my place ready before baby comes and I get all busy. I super agree that my helper gets her own personal time/room/space, whatever. Just do your job well. Spy cams are there for us working mummies to make sure that everything is alright. Too many abusing cases out there and I am just taking precautions. Any recommendations out there? 

Convenience sake.... No. 3!

3. Electronic lock. Okay, seriously? This is convenient, Keyless! Haha! Imagine I am carrying my girl and I have loads of groceries on my hand (worst case scenario), SPARE me from searching of house keys from my bag. Hehe. This obviously a want and not a must to have. Oh well, not priority in the list though.

NO CHOICE........ No. 4!

4. Prepare my baby room!! This include.... Cot (from my brother), changing table (from my sister), cabinets/drawers for baby clothes, bed for confinement lady and helper. Oh yes! I also got a baby bag from jujube and bedside cot from mothercare for my masterbed room! This way I can BREASTFEED her whenever she feels hungry!
The baby room is currently in a mess, it looks like a 2nd store room to me. Yes, I got to get it sorted out soon! Hopefully by this weekend with the help of my husband.

Which leads me to do list No. 5!

5. STOREROOM SHELVING. If I do not pack up my baby room, no.5 on the list can never be achieved! I shall put in more effort with hubby over weekend and get this sorted out as soon as possible so that I can doll up the baby room. =D

Miscellaneous No. 6!

6. After things are more organized in the baby room, you can clearly see what is needed or anything that has been missed out.

There are so many things to prepare before little Teo arrives. Some of the items, we will only realize what we need to get only after taking care of little Teo. I can't wait for her arrival, though this means that I will be super busy with life. BUT I also get to start exercising! HOooraay!



These are some of the items I bought for little teo from mothercare, it is not a lot as my elder sister has newborn clothing to pass to me! I am glad and thankful to have my elder sister as she guides me through what I have to get besides the essentials (mittens/Breast-feeding cover-up/nailcutter/bibs etc.)
I will also be glad to share with anyone who needs help! You can always email me if you are a new parent and lost in what you need to get etc.. Different people, different style of doing things. It is not a must to follow exactly what I have. =)

For Stroller, we bought Stokke Xplory All Black and I may write about it soon! Oh yes! Together with Jujube Baby Bag! =D

Panasonic Lumix LX100 and Casio TR35

Happy New Year Everyone! New Year.... New Camera! =D

I have been an owner of Casio TR35 for maybe 2 years? I am still loving it! Its super good to take selfies... makes people look more chio.. Thats what girls like right? Admit it!

Selfie taken by Casio TR35
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FLAWLESS! And it doesn't look fake, it just look as if I have super good skin. Haha! There is a "make-up" function that you can choose either brightening or natural, you can choose the effect between a scale of 0 (nothing.. duh) to 12 (FLAWLESS). It is different from those kind of beauty camera apps when you edit your pictures, you can see that the "lighting" is unnatural. Trust me!

Before I got this camera, in my mind was.. "Super expensive!!!" But now... Its all worth it. Because! It can take nice scenary shots AND has wide angle lens; make things easier when I want to take food shots.. selfies (no more worries for people who has shorter hands.)

Example of a macro shot with TR35

Picture says it all. =D

Food shots are made easier with its wide angled lens.. 

It can cover a table of foood!

Super love my Casio TR35. Downside? It does not have the camera feel, that is why.... this year, We got ourselves LUMIX LX100. 

Although its wide angle loses the Casio TR35, but compromise lah. We bought it mainly because it is a point and shoot camera. It is able to capture shots of a moving baby clearly. Tried on my niece and I am amazed! This is one thing that Casio TR35 can't do as well as Lumix LX100. So.. In preparation of the arrival of our baby, it is a good investment. Haha!

Some pictures taken by Lumix LX100

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Look at this macro shot. Lumix LX100 does not require to change any lens to do such shot. BUT of course a real photographer would love to play with lens. For me, convenience, good pictures. I'm happy!

Such fine details....

Yes, 2 cams I have with me now... I do not find it a hassle bringing both out cos it serves different purpose! Maybe the Casio TR35 are more for parties... where we can camwhore like crazy! Haha!

Whereby Lumix LX100 is good for babies shots, overseas trips. =D

Confinement ....

My views on confinement changed drastically. I used to think that confinement is nonsense and that not washing my hair for a month is disgusting, not only that, sleeping without air condition?! YOU MUST BE KIDDING RIGHT?

Now, due to frequent gastric pain, indigestion and vomiting, I am more determined to get myself stronger. I have heard from mothers that after pregnancy, the body resets, this is the time you have to take super good care of yourself and eat nutritiously! It is my guess that my current gastric problems were all due to alcohol, chilli and vinegar intake prior to pregnancy and these 3 stuff literally kills my gastric.

With the whole new view on confinement, I do think that not washing my hair for a few days are actually quite okay (haha! please don't freak out okay). By doing so, it is believed that "wind" will not enter your body and cause the post-natal mum to feel cold or weak. I rather believe and practice with the hope that I get stronger after confinement! My friends told me to wrap up my hair if they were to visit, cause they are already freaking out when I told them I am not going to wash my hair for few days. Hehe..  I am also going to stock up long sleeves and long pants PJs to keep myself warm 24/7. It is only 30 days! I am sure I can get through this! (super enthu now..... hope this enthusiasm continues after I have given birth, haha.)

And yes, NO to chilli, vinegar and alcohol during the 30 days. I do not know whether it will really helps? But I just want to whack everything and hope for the best. =) Then hopefully, when 2nd child comes, things will get better. =D

Oh yes, my sis in law told me to eat steamed food instead of fried. Great idea! Difficult to achieve, I KNOW. I MUST BE DISCIPLINED! Naturally, I have big thighs and butt. Really want to shake it off post-natal. I am super positive of losing weight after pregnancy, slowly but surely.... hehe. Gonna engage a masseur to bind my tummy and do some real massage!

HELLO?! I still have 5 months more to go?! and what! I am getting all excited already? LOL...

Confinement confinement confinement...... I cannot wait for you to come.

Happy Marriage Anniversary!

It has been a year since we got married! So much things and changes happened just within a year!

Next year, we will have our Daughter (90% confirmed till date) to celebrate with us! Haha.. That's if nothing happens. 

I want to thank the man that I marry to:

THANK YOU FOR...

1. Being such a good husband. 

2. Ever so patient

3. Always providing me love 

4. Always buying me things I like. (But not for unpractical ones)

5. Taking care of me during my 1st 3 months of pregnancy. It has not been easy, I know. With all the housework (mainly washing of clothes), cleaning up after Brownie... etc.

6. Waking up early just to make breakfast for me ever since I got pregnant.

7. Making Milo for me whenever I felt hungry or am having gastric pains.

8. Pampering me
9. Feeding me with a lot of medication to ease symptoms of morning sickness (Yes, thats what you do I know.... -.-)

10. Bringing me to eat whatever I want (except for alcohol and raw food.. for now.......)

11. Buying back food during wee hours just because I had cravings or felt hungry.

12. Visiting me at home during your on-call night when I was feeling horrible because of morning sickness PLUS food poisoning.

SO MUCH MORE.

Really thank GOD for sending each other into our lives. Not only for Good times but also bad times. Believing in God and trusting in God does not mean only receiving good things, it also includes set backs,. But most importantly, the walk with Him. 

I can't wait for the arrival of our baby already! Even though it has only been 4 months.. Meanwhile! I shall start signing up for maternity yoga, massages... etc! Pamper myself a bit lah.

5 more months Jamie Lim! You can do it! YIKES!

After All the MIA.. Now I am back!

Wow. It is has been about 3 months since my last entry?! Where have I been?! Well, I have a good news to share....

I'M PREGNANT!!! (unplanned pregnancy though)

Initially I was feeling all weird, especially with 24/7 tiredness, feeling nauseated while driving! No appetite for food, no feel for wine even if it is in front of me. I decided to do a urine test on my birthday, 31st August. And its truely a birthday gift.

Frankly, I was not ready for it at all, everyone around me was so happy except myself. Many thoughts ran through my mind.. my freedom! Heels! Nice clothes! Raw food! Alcohol! These are the things I have to abstain from.  It is so hard to accept because I am only less than a year into marriage life and a little one is coming.

I went through a lot these 2-3 months. I do not know whether it happens to other mothers. Either they had it worst or better. But what I do know is that my situation was bad. At least in my opinion.

After I knew I was pregnant, somehow symptoms starts to get worst. It really might be psychological but I could not control it. I was vomiting like crazy. Every morning I woke up with a discomfort feeling in my gastric. I could not eat as usual. Even if I am hungry, I was nauseated at the same time. This might also be due to my underlying gastric problem. I tried a lot of medications.. methods just to avoid nausea and gastric pains. I could not take maxalon during the day as I was working. In fact, I tried twice and ended up being very drowsy at work. and.. the feeling SUX. I tried taking ondansetron thereafter. It works for awhile! and guess what! it gave me serious constipation problems! I was so down during the month of sept and oct. Even had thoughts of aborting the baby because the discomfort was really unbearable and also wanted to give up my job and school because I do not want people to judge me when I feel sick at work (sick in terms of vomiting and gastric pains AND fatigue) or not doing my part in school work. Really felt very unproductive and a sickling during these 2-3 months.

I got so many comments during this period of time, one of which that i could not forget was " your symptoms seems to get worst after you know you are pregnant." This, really hurt me .... A LOT. because you are not pregnant, you DO NOT know what I am going through. Even now when I am writing this, it makes me tear, It is like, hello? do you think i want to go through this? Why do you have to say such things. I also have people who purposely impose stress. Is either on purpose or they have very low EQ. Sigh. While on the other hand, I have people who are more understanding and I know who you are, and I feel very appreciative about it. Thank you guys. 

Vomiting symptoms is getting better during the end of October but I still get indigestions every now and then. Gaviscon is really really good. Symptoms are really 80% better now? With random times of vomit. 

What a journey, I do love my kid more now that is because I feel less sick. HAHA. Frankly, I am not a kid person yet, and I cannot imagine myself to put my child first before anything else...

I am going to see my gynae coming monday and by then I will know its gender! (I hope!)