Negativity vs Positivity

I always have negative thoughts about EVERYTHING. okay, not everything lah but most of the things. Especially post pregnancy, your thoughts really plays with you.

Some examples in my life that can be seen differently.

FACT #1: I am 63kg now. 

Negativity: I am damn FAT lah! Used to be 55kg slim and damn hot (no shame siol), no stretchmarks, toned etc etc. Why 5 months after birth I am still so fucking FAT! 

Positivity: FREAK! I LOST 18KG in 5months! that is like 3.6kg per month! and... hEY! I did not work very hard to lose weight. I took fatty food to boost my breastmilk supply- like avocados, bananas, virgin coconut OIL, CHEESE, nuts.. etc! (Yes, to me, breastfeeding is important, I did not because of how I want to look, stop breastfeeding.. pleaaaase do not wrong me.) So imagine, if I really worked hard, exercise like siao, go on diet... my achievement gonna be AWESOME.

FACT #2: I have stretchmarks.

Negativity: EEW LAH! I look like a zebra! How many girls, at my age, have stretchmarks, even though they are pregnant or have kids, their skin so nice lah (I assume la, no evidence)!  eew, 27 years old, with a stretchmark filled skin... fml.

 (ok. this zebra is cute.)

Positivity: EH! EH! EH! I got one super cute daughter! 

My husband loves me even more cause he see what I have been through during pregnancy! I am thankful I can spend on lasers.... RFs... etc etc... Not everyone are willing to spend or have that kind of money to spend on such treatments. It is not about money too. Lets say, I am damn rich, but no one help me to look after my baby, how am I supposed to leave home for such treatment? SO.... really thankful for my mum for supporting me, helping me to look after Gabrielle so I got time for myself. 

Anyone can say anything they want to. They can TRY to make you happy or unhappy by simply saying something....... But it is you who control your thoughts on what they say. It is you who control how you want to react or feel towards it.. 

So which one do you belong to? Positivity or Negativity? 

Post Pregnancy Weight Loss

IT IS SO DIFFICULT TO LOSE! Serve me right seriously. I've gained at least 26kg during the whole pregnancy. I am currently 65.9kg(at least), and 66.4kg (at most). I've got 10 to 11kg more to go? I am not doing a strict diet as I am still breastfeeding my child, and definitely want to be a responsible mother. My Carb-less diet only applies to dinner. Breakfast are not consider carb-less as oats contains a small amount of carbohydrate. In general, I try to cut carbohydrate but not totally take it off my diet..
I used to lose weight very easily! All I need was 2 to 4 weeks of diet watch (includes occasional drinking) and workout 2 times a week... and I can get the body I want. Now, I think it requires double the effort!

Being fat is not a sin, please do not get me wrong. It just causes a lot of aches and pains. For example, my plantar fasciitis came back and it really hurts really bad every time I walk. My old hip injury I had from dance came back. My thigh and knee joints hurts every single time I attempt to get up from sitting or lying. My posture is haywire! My core muscles is not strong. I really need to visit my myotherapist coming week and start pilates sooooooon!!! What is more disturbing? I cannot seem to jog cause my new weight is hurting my knee, running a few minutes made me feel so heavy and uncomfortable. SIGH.

Thank God for Jessica from Neuage clinic for introducing Figurerobics by Jung Da Yeon. It is a low impact workout and you can really perspire buckets! Always feel good after doing the workout. For those who is struggling with their weight and are facing problems like me (old woman body), can always try out! Good things are always worth sharing. You can get the DVDs from Qoo10 if you are really into it!

After much consideration, I guess I will not go for liposuction. I should only do it if I really try so damn hard to lose but fail or only after 2-3 kids. Going under knife will be the last option. Not that I am against plastic surgery ( I am actually quite open for plastics, hehe) but there are so many accidents that happened during lipo! I was quite taken aback when I google Liposuction deaths. LOL. Perforation, Overdose on sedation... whats not. Scarli haven't even suck out the fats, then just die on table due to overdose of GA. Damn scary.

In conclusion, I just want back my old weight, 55kg. 51kg is tooo slim for me, I've tried it and I do not like it. I don't look good being too skinny.

To my friends who are working out too, YOU CAN DO IT! Never give up! Giving up is the worst thing you can do! If you are thinking whether to exercise today or not, JUST DO IT, Do not ponder. After working out, you will feel happy and satisfied! OR you can text me! We can motivate each other! Jiayou everyone!

Love my girl, she is just so cute even when she cries.. haha!