39 weeks! Summarizing my pregnancy journey

I am 11 days into my Maternity Leave and yes! I have not given birth yet. Past few weeks had been rather painful for me especially the hormonal mood swings! Urghhhh.. But! Things are getting better.... I guess it is because I am learning how to let go.

Let us take a step back and reminisce the past before I step into the next chapter of life anytime soon!

You can also read my thoughts during 1st trimester here .
During my 1st trimester (1st 3 months of pregnancy), I still remembered on the 29th of August, Desmond and I celebrated my 26th birthday at Morton's; the funny thing was, I did not have any craving for wine! It is really amazing how the body protects the baby by making me feel queasy when I think of alcohol. Haha! I ordered a small bottle of red wine just for the sake of having some wine on the dining table.
The next day, my family celebrated my birthday at a Korean BBQ restaurant at Dempsey, I did not even have the mood to dress up?! or Party? Moreover it is over the weekend! As usual, my alcohol connoisseur brother (alcoholic bro) ordered beer and soju. It is apparently damn good and it is placed infront of me! GUESS WHAT! I only took a sip! LOL.
On the 30th, I was all dressed up! Went to work and I went somewhere that I cannot remember! On my birthday itself, Hubby and I were strolling at Takashimaya, I told him, "Eh boy, my menses is 5 days late already.." As usual, he said, "watch and see how lor........" I got to drag him into Watsons at Taka to buy the test kit and TADA! Happy birthday Jamie Lim, You've got a kid as your birthday present!
No wonder I felt nauseated when I was driving to work for the past few days! No wonder my girdle suddenly felt soooooo tight that I could not even breathe! No wonder I whipped up sour salmon as dinner one night! NO WONDER I DISLIKE ALCOHOL! Hahaha

This is me taken during my company's Bali trip. 1st trimester but do not look pregnant at all! Love my "flat", scar-less and smooth tummy.
Will I ever go back to this state? I really have no idea! Surgery or not, options are open. I will do surgery to boost confidence, why not? Maybe after 2-3 kids? Maybe year end? No plans yet as I have to give myself time to recover.

WHEE! SO CAREFREE EH?

Nausea seems to get better after 16weeks, 2nd trimester! It is the best time of pregnancy? You just look like some fat ass enjoying food. HAHA. Had a really good time in London/Newcastle/Paris during my 2nd trimester with hubby. Time passed really fast during the 2nd trimester because it was almost all about enjoyment. 

Body changes and low mood kicks in during the 3rd trimester when I see my pretty body stretched, puffed,  fattened up and start having MRT tracks on my body. This is when I feel that I am the ugliest woman on earth. The only thing I felt was good is my complexion and my boobs. LOL.

Gonna show you guys how my body, tummy and stretch marks grew! As these pics are taken using my colleague phone, I do not have the dates with me! Enjoy the pics and yes, you can start gossiping about my stretch marks. 

The above last pic was taken quite some time back, prolly 3-4 weeks ago.. I do not have a recent pic of my baby bump! Or rather, I can't find an appropriate one to be posted online. So anyways..... back to stretchmarksssss...

Initially the stretchmarks started to appear over the butt and upper thighs, then at the sides of the knee and at the very end, the tummy and guess what! Those over the butt and thighs are fading already! I really do not know what is helping, as you can see from the above pic, stretchmarks over the hip area are not active anymore. The only active stretchmarks now is over the tummy and side of knee.

I have been using these products religiously, ensuring it is on my body for 24/7. I cannot say it is super useful? Because I still have marks growing on me despite applying, and those that are faded is either due to the products or natural progression of the stretchmarks. So yea...... but better to continue than have nothing on right?

Before applying Stratamark, I use the Clarins StretchMark Cream occasionally, instead of the body oil. Somehow I stopped using the cream and continued with the oil.
Anyways, side track, the oil is to be applied on damp skin after showering, then rinse with cold water and dap dry. Read this on Clarins website as they did not mention it in the package insert.
Stratamark is used to seal the moisture, so I apply it last!
I have spent way too much on all these products.. maybe 5k throughout the pregnancy? Products only... I am not born with awesome skin so yea... Will be going for treatment post confinement as mentioned earlier on my previous post!

Bad skin elasticity on my body. Thankfully I still have good complexion. *Consolation Prize*

I have learnt how to let go with the marks on my body and looking forward to exercise, tone and laser off those ugly marks away. Not forgetting the weight I have gained so far.. Worst case scenario of weight gain.... Maybe 30kg? Gonna take a chill pill for now and wait for Gabrielle's arrival! 

During this pregnancy, you kind of know who really cares for you and who doesn't and it is really unexpected! Really thankful for those people who are there to keep cheering me up and supporting me in any ways.. from my SA to work colleagues to friends to family... You know who you are. I really THANK YOU.  Guess what.... I have ONE colleague who can say that I am fat and laughed at me (she is not joking by the way. *roll eyes* I shall not expose you on the internet)

Lastly, Thank you Lao Gong for being there always! Literally. Especially when I feel moody and crazy. These past 39 weeks had not been easy for you. Thank youuuuuuuu! 

I LOVE YOU!

My next update will prolly be after Baby Gabrielle pops out! =D

Pregnancy Fatigue... Woes..... BUT!

It comes and goes without any warning. The past week had been really tiring both physically and mentally. I could sleep as early as 9pm, and wake up as though I have not slept through the night. Totally zombified. During work, I look forward to going to bed more than anything else... more than eating.... more than dessert. YES! DESSERT! no kidding. zzz. I could not endure the sudden onset of rapid bloating, pain, fatigue... guess what! When I lie supine on my bed for maybe... 10mins? then change position to lateral, my pussy hurts like fuck! REALLY PAINFUL!
Thankfully, I managed to call in my masseuse for a good massage, introduced by my hermes SA! She is strong and I fell asleep as the massage was toooo shiok. haha. Last lap of pregnancy is really not easy. There are so many things I have to accept. e.g. MY SUDDEN BLOATING. Whenever I laugh or smile... I couldn't feel my cheeks, neither can my eyes be seen. LOL.
On good days, I could go shopping and hang out with friends, but it lasts no more than 4 hours. By the 4th hour, my energy level dropped drastically, I could feel the weight on my pelvis and my face looked as though I am hypoglycemic.

Right.. all will be gone soon. I look forward to weight loss after pregnancy and will definitely share my journey on weight loss! by the way.................... I have already gained 24KG!!!!!!!!!! For the upcoming week, I plan to have..
Breakfast: Oats with eggs instead of bread.. nasi lemak... bee hoon .....
Lunch is going to be slightly unhealthy because there are limited choice (ahem,... excuses actually, there are super healthy food selling at paragon... HAHA!). Fine! Lunch is cheat meal, unless I feel like eating healthy.
Dinner will be at home! Steamed fish.. soup... BROWN RICE...
Dessert : Birdnest/strawberries/papaya milkshake. NO ICE CREAM ALLOWED ANY MORE.
It is easier to say/type than to be done. Really got to be more disciplined so that post natal meal restrictions will be easier for me to handle!

OH YES! I am also looking around and reading up for stretch mark removal lasers that is effective. IF IT IS EFFECTIVE I WILL SHARE DEFINITELY. IF it is not, I will share too, so that you guys dont waste your money. haha!  It is really depressing to have our skin ruined just because of pregnancy. AND I do not believe in looking ugly/aunty post pregnancy. I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO POST CONFINEMENT, where I can start planning my meals, workout... and do whatever that needs to be done to be normal again. Does not mean after having a kid I will not have time for myself right? Just got to move that huge ass of mine! Haha!

Hey! That being said, it is really amazing to have a little one wriggling in your tummy. On random moments she will give me a big kick! Funny and cute at the same time. Can't wait to see her face, how she will look like... how her character will be... Hehe. Gonna be exciting but scared at the same time, I really WANT a total natural birth...NO Pethidine/ NO Epidural/ NO Caesarian! I hate the side effects of Pethidine and Epidural, Some mamas that does epidural complain of achiness over their waist. Some, complain of side effects of Pethidine... VOMITING (Had enough vomiting during 1st trimester. DO NOT WANT TO GO THROUGH IT AGAIN! ROAR!) For casearian, the only thing I dread is recovery, it takes about 3 weeks to recover from that cut? OR is it even longer? I do not dread the scar.... I DREAD wasting my time lying around and restricted to do any exercise. BOO! I hope I can go through the pain and at the same time baby teo will come out smmoooooooothly.


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